When I was a girl, I never knew just how two little pink lines could completely alter my world. Never gave it much thought as to how I would react to the news that I was pregnant. It is no news to many of my friends that our first little blessing, Grayson, was a complete surprise…we found out we were expecting this blessing when we had been married only about 9 months. We both – but mostly me – were in utter shock. I took test after test because SURELY they ALL couldn’t be positive. I had been on birth control, for goodness sake. It wasn’t until a close friend of mine bought me one of those Clear Blue tests that read “pregnant” or “not pregnant” that I realized the 5-6 tests didn’t lie, and we were indeed expecting.
Two little pink lines changed our lives – FOREVER.
Then came time to think about child number two. Since Grayson came to us while on birth control, we half expected an easy time getting pregnant with our second. However, that was not the case. Month after month we ached to see those two pink lines. The same two pink lines that I had once dreaded and thought were a joke. Yet month after month we saw one. One pink line.
Then it finally happened. Two pink lines. We were overjoyed, yet when I went in for my first OB appointment at 12 weeks, they could not detect a heartbeat; we lost that little one.
Two little pink lines changed our lives – FOREVER.
I will say this gave me just a TINY taste of what infertility must feel like. I have a special place in my heart for women who, like me, have spent months – or even years – hoping for those two pink lines. I know I can never know fully what it must feel like, as I had a child at this point – and thought the 11 months of infertility seemed like an eternity in my mind, it really wasn’t abnormal. And although, at least as of this post, we have only experienced one miscarriage, I understand the pain and sadness you feel when you lose a child still growing. I praise and thank God for taking care of our little baby for us until we can one day be reunited.
After we took some time to heal, we decided to once again think about adding to our family, and shortly after, we saw those two little pink lines. Nervous, yet so thankful, we fervently prayed through pregnancy and the Lord granted us another beautiful little boy, Rockwell.
Two little pink lines changed our lives – FOREVER.
After a lot of thought process – due to some concerns we had (and also because Nate was going to be gone much of Rockwell’s first year of life) we have opted to let God direct our fertility from here on out. Really – he was directing it all along. We were trying NOT to have a child, and he gave us one; we tried to have one, and it took months. I think the main decision here is that we are taking our “control” out of the situation and letting God build our family rather than trying to do it on our own strength. I will be honest – this is making me a little nervous, but really, with God in control, why should I be?
Nate returned from Afghanistan on February 8, 2013. I know I will write more about this time of my life later, but I will say this one thing: absence really does make the heart grow fonder when you are both focusing on the Lord. It is so nice to have him home.
Now for the real point of this post. You probably already guessed it. That is right. Two little pink lines are, once again, going to change our lives forever. We are happy to announce we are pregnant with our third blessing! I am 11 weeks and 5 days – due November 16, 2013. Yep – God sure has a sense of humor in him (if you look back to the date Nate returned, you will understand why).
We are ecstatic about this new blessing, yet, would ask for prayer as this came at a time when we are still in transition. Please pray with us for the many changes our family will undergo in the next few months. Specifically, please pray that the Lord will provide a good job for Nate. We fully trust he will provide the same way he has always provided in the past, but please pray we will continue this attitude as sometimes it is easier said than practiced. Thank you for rejoicing with us in this unexpected (yet expected) blessing!
Two little pink lines will once again change our lives – FOREVER.
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